Can I have more creepy dreams?

Most people hate nightmares. There are even cases where people refused to sleep after having recurrent nightmares. I guess I am one of the lucky few who rarely have nightmares, despite having rather freaky dreams. But as a lucid dreamer whose primary method is DILD, I can't help but to think that it'll be good if I could have more dreams of creepy nature so that I could attain lucidity more often. Pretty wtf eh? Most of my longer dream induced lucid dreams started as some sort of nightmare, so I guess I could say that hahahahaha.

Anyway, last night I listened to isochronic tones, took B6 and Valerian root tea. Today I attempted WBTB + WILD to see if I, too, can do WILD. I tried to keep my body very still for a few minutes and visualized myself meeting Adrien in my lucid dream (lol I still can't get over him). Felt that distinctive vibrations soon after, but unfortunately I had an overwhelming urge to change my sleeping position so I did just that, undoing my effort for the past 10 minutes. This is why I can't do WILD - I have short attention span lol. I ended up falling asleep without going through sleep paralysis.

I found myself in a strange and unfamiliar place, but someone told me I was still in Dunedin. Two of my housemates were with me, and we went to visit a spa nearby. I didn't know what prompted us to go there, but as soon as we reached the spa, I felt compelled to have a treatment despite my financial constraint and all. After filling a form, I told the staff that I wanted to go for a walk first before the treatment. We walked along the unknown street, going past the seemingly posh boutiques and cafes. After several minutes of aimless walking, we reached a rather shabbier part of the area, with mediocre-looking rows of shops. I noticed that there was a shop selling fabrics and sewing stuffs along the street, which resembled one of those textile stores back in Malaysia. I then realized that the shop was actually Kamdar, a popular fabric store back home. I thought "hell I didn't know they have Kamdar in New Zealand!" and immediately abandoned my friends to explore the shop. The price was very cheap, and I was just about to buy some nice cotton to be made into baju kurung for Eid when my friends called me and asked me to follow them. At this point Top somehow emerged out of nowhere and followed us to an abandoned playground, where he met our ex-schoolmate Nape.

I realized that I had to get back to the spa for my treatment, but I somehow felt reluctant to do so when thinking about the cost of the treatment. Still, I had no choice but to keep on with it, since I have signed up and everything. Upon returning, one of the staffs asked me to change my clothes in the changing room. The changing room was very small, kinda resembling the bathroom in one of my seniors' house. A staff gave me bathrobe for me to change into. She also had with her several syringes, which she filled up with liquid from strange looking ampoules as I was changing my clothes. I asked her what was that for, and she told me that they were part of the treatment - which of course made me feel a bit worried. I looked around me; the changing room was in a very poor state, and I somehow saw two big cages at one corner. When I looked closely, I noticed that the cages were occupied - one cage contained a very big rabbit, and another one contained a strange looking creature. The creature resembled a miniature version of an adult human being, but with infant head. It was placed along with a male cat in the cage, and it seemed like in great terror. The staff later explained that the creature was a genetically engineered human being, and the infant head was caused by an error during the GE process. At this point I was totally freaked out, which made me woke up briefly. I told myself upon waking, "damn I sure wish I could become lucid", but since I didn't open my eyes and move I had a chance to do DEILD. Before I knew it I was back in the same bathroom. Unlike my last lucid dream, this time I managed to remind myself to stabilize the dream first before doing anything else. I touched the walls and shower curtain, and immediately my surroundings became extra vivid. Oddly, I somehow felt as if the dream world was spinning. Thinking that the dream was not stable enough, I tried to stabilize it further through dream spinning, which made everything become normal. Just for the hell of it, I looked at my hands, and saw a total of 12 fingers.

I stepped out of the changing room, and my surroundings immediately became darkened, with very little elements. My friends were back with me, so I told them that I was having my lucid dream. Being my mischievous DCs, they didn't say anything and walked away. I thought that it would be cool to have Adrien with me while I explore the dream world, so I called out his name and tried to summon him. My attempts were not successful. Bored with the bland environment, I decided to get away from the place. There seemed to be no exit, so I made myself a door. When I opened it, however, I found another door. Then another, and another. After the fifth door, I realized my mistake - I didn't visualize the place where I wanted to go. I tried again, but this time instead of opening the door, I decided to walk through it. That very action however made me wake up immediately.

See what I told you about nightmares/creepy dreams? It did manage to make me attain lucidity hahaha. Although I didn't get to do much stuffs this time, it was a long enough lucid dream and I'm still happy. And it was damn vivid! Dream spinning is awesome; I should do it more often.

Post-holiday update

It's not that I don't dream at all during my hiatus, you see. That would be impossible, because I am quite a vivid dreamer and I can easily recall my dreams most of the time. It's just that when you have too much free time (i.e. during winter break), you tend to become very idle and abandon many 'trivial' things to focus on stuffs like, uh, Memebase. I know, I know, you would think that a 3-week long holiday would give me more time to write down my dreams and update my blogs more often. Apparently that's not the case for me. I even left my physical dream journal empty for almost two weeks.

Lucid dreaming-wise, I only have two uneventful ones during my winter break, both of them lasting for no more than a minute. The most that I could do was walking through doors, but that was it. But that's still a good news because I managed to end my month long dry spell (at one point I even thought that my ability to lucid dream had been taken away from me, I've never had dry spells as long as that one. But then I read about a senior DV member who've had an eight months long dry spell).

Now that second sem has started, I expect that I will get back on track and have 1-2 lucid dreams per week like I used to have. I guess there's a connection between getting your mind to be alert and concentrate during lectures with dream awareness. Besides, I tend to do more reality checks/ All Day Awareness during lecture, and have more chances to do WBTB. We'll see how things progress over the week.