Well, it's not like my usual 20-minute long lucid dream with awesome controls and stuffs, but I did realize that I was dreaming so yeah, still a valid lucid dream. My dream was similar to the one I had a few weeks back (it's in the drafts list. maybe later), one which started as a false awakening. I woke up but didn't open my eyes; I suddenly gained the ability to see behind my closed eyelids. Everything seemed unstable and wobbly, so I concluded that I must be dreaming. Tried a new reality checking method today - instead of looking at my hands, I did the popular nose-pinching reality check. It took me a while to realize that I could breathe through my pinched nose though. What made me disappointed was the fact that I couldn't do much in this dream; I wanted to get up and do awesome things, but I was too afraid to do so thinking that any movement I did in the dream would happen in real life, causing me to wake up. I kept having this urge to open my eyes because my closed eyelids vision was impaired - everything was very dark and blurry - but refrained myself from doing so in order to prolong the dream. I did manage to take a few steps away from my bed before I woke up when my phone alarm went off.
I realized that this kind of dream usually occur during my afternoon nap. Hypothesis? Afternoon nap is too short for me to reach a decent REM phase.
After waking up from the dream, I went back to sleep. Had another dream but did not become lucid because I couldn't be bothered to do DEILD. This time, I found myself in the middle of a night market, finding food for my dinner. I ended up buying char kuay teow with lots of mussels, which tasted heavenly. After dinner, I followed a DC to a hidden shop, where he introduced me to a variety of legal highs. I initially refused to take them, but after being coaxed by the salesgirl, I decided to try a legal hallucinogen (I'm not sure what it was made up of, but it's a packet of white powder, very much resembling cocaine. Definitely not Salvia). At that point I really felt bad for giving in to my desires to experiment on drugs, but I told myself that it was not even illegal so there's nothing wrong with that. I snorted the white powder with my partner and another random DC. I was expecting a burning sensation inside my nasal cavity, but nothing really happened. After snorting them clean, i suddenly felt panicky. What if I have to undergo a drug test after this? I asked the salesgirl if the substance I took could be detected by urinalysis, and she said no. After several minutes I still did not feel anything from the substance, so I asked the salesgirl how long should I wait. She told me that I should be able to feel something by 7.50 pm (it was 7.30 pm) and the effects will last until 9.35 pm. I felt relieved; at least it's not as long-lasting as LSD. I then went back to my house accompanied by my partner.
There was a cool party happening downstairs, and my partner decided to join it. I did not follow him coz I felt the noises and visuals would be too much for my first drug experience, so I went upstairs and waited for the hallucinations to take place. As soon as I walked into my house, I was brought back to my old childhood home, with dad and his kittens waiting for me. Everything in the house resembled my old house, complete with the little wall clock I used to repair when I was little, Mom's very old but faithful fridge, the mattresses where I used to sleep on. I looked at my watch; it was 7.35 pm. Frickin hallucinations, I told myself. After playing with the kittens for a while, I woke up for good. And I felt like crying, coz I miss my old house and my dad and my kittens that much.
Tonight, I will have another lucid dream. And I will return to my childhood hometown. And, er, take some more drugs in the process. Hahaha.
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